I look in the mirror and I see a ghost of my former self. I look at my life and I see myself potentially becoming a psychavlaphen288 lady or living in the woods. I used to have a nice little house on the water, an awesome job, hiked, collected rocks. I loved life. I've lost my friends. Most of them. Even family doesn't understand. I have become a total recluse. Food and doctor appts are the highlight of my life and all I do.